YOU ARE ALLOWED THIS MOMENT
Today, May 21 2020 and we are in a pandemic. COVID 19. Long lines. Toilet paper scarce. The Internet has become our concert halls, time with friends and virtual hugs with family. Nevertheless, the beautiful sunset kissed me at 6:30 am and soon after the fresh wind hugged my body really tight, reminding me of life and love. My heart warm and my head clearer than it have been in a long time. I sat there feeling like a warm cup of peppermint tea. And in some ways I also found myself experiencing guilt for enjoying peace in that moment. There was no reason to be unhappy and bothered. And trust me there are probably millions of reasons for me to feel disgruntled all connected to the day I was born until now. But today, I refused to let anything take away that moment. I said out loud, “You are allowed this moment.
Can you believe something so easy and beautiful can be difficult? I mean, what is that really? Why do we all at some point feel guilty for enjoying moments of goodness, living well and being drama free? Have we become a people who think if we are not always struggling, bickering and hustling we are not worthy of peace, joy and love.
Shouldn’t at some point, the storm ease, the flooded water sinks into the ocean and the fire that rages, subside? Have we become so addicted to chaos and continuous pain that we allow momentary bliss to slip through our fingers? Have we become so impulsive with going back to the familiarity of our wounds that we don’t realize they’ve been healed and our relapse are just scars?
Moments are gifts. Both the challenging ones that have us in tears and our blood boiling are worthy of our attention. They are all there to teach us, comfort us and ultimately lead us to our deepest self. Avoiding any of our moments is like taking away breath and life. They are the treasure boxes of our souls.
Moments are worth fighting for no matter what they are. It is your gift. It is your teacher. It is your lover. It is your reflection demanding your gaze. It is your truth. It is your freedom. It is your spirit being engaged. Take your moments whatever they are and remember you are allowed to be gentle with yourself. You are allowed to nurture your heart. You are allowed to nourish your growth. You are allowed to change your mind. You are allowed to learn from your mistake. You are allowed to let your heart discover love on its own. You are allowed to define your own happiness. You are allowed to love fearlessly. You are allowed to go on your own adventures. You are allowed to live in your moments. Take them. Savor them. Enjoy them. Relish in them until they are embedded in your soul and become a gift to others that you’ve lived unapologetically.
Right now, more than ever I am enjoying my decisions for my life regardless of my inner critic. I am celebrating my moments. I am learning to be proud of my decisions despite others opinions. And I choose to remember this moment in my life that at one time I was daring. I laughed. I loved. I fell in love again. I did not care. I cried. I slept and got up when I wanted to. I wrote the truth and spared no feelings. I was sensitive. I also was ruthless. I ran to save the day. I also did not flinch when they died. I was silent. I let my voice be heard. I did it my way and I am willing to take responsibility for my moments. They are the stripes of my day. And today I stand facing them with honor and no regrets. Beautiful ones, no matter where you are on your journey, be convinced that you are allowed this moment. It’s yours. Give it all of you.
